My Thoughts on Taylor Swift’s “evermore” 🍂

Hello world!

How have you all been. I’ve been good, I’ve taken the second dose of the vaccine a few days ago, and my shoulder is completely numb. But I’m good! I also lowkey realized that my blog basically became a baking blog or something, so expect some random stories and stuff, I really missed writing those type of blogs! But anyways. Taylor Swift’s 9th studio album, evermore, came out more then a month ago. When it came out I wrote a blog of my first impression of it, and in that blog I said that in one month I’d write my thoughts on it after listening to it more thoroughly. And here it is! Let me know what you think about the album, and if you agree with my opinions of it.

willow

willow is the first track on the album. When I first heard it, and I wasn’t too familiar with the album, it used to be one of my favorites. Now? not so much. It’s good, I love it and know it by heart and would die to be able to scream the words in a concert some day, but I feel like I’ve heard it way too many times on all kinds of different apps that it’s just not my favorite. It’s usually what happens to singles from all albums, but it didn’t happened to me with cardigan, the single from her 8th studio album, folklore. To conclude, love it, but isn’t my favorite. My favorite line from the song is “wreck my plans, that’s my man”.

champagne problems

OMG LOVE LOVE LOVE. From the very beginning this one was a favorite, but it just keep getting better and better. I love this song so much, and even though it’s lyrically sad, for some reason I keep finding myself screaming and singing this song incredibly loudly in front of my mirror(ball). I love it! So so much. There’s nothing else to add except for that lmao. My favorite line from the song is the entire bridge, which is amazing, but especially the part where she says “what a shame she’s fucked in the head”. Obviously.

gold rush

This song is so incredible, and again, just like champagne problems, it just keeps getting better. It’s so satisfying for some reason? Like I feel like it’s the perfect song to ice skate to or to dance to. It’s just so nice! I love it. My favorite part is when she says “with your hair falling into place like dominos”.

’tis the damn season

When I first heard ’tis the damn season I wasn’t sure that I really liked it, I thought that it was okay-ish. But now I really like it! The more I listen to it, the better it gets. I definitely need to keep on playing it in order to get used to it 🙂 My favorite lines are “but if it’s okay with you, it’s okay with me” and “but if it’s all the same to you, it’s the same to me”.

tolerate it

This is track number five, therefore it’s quite emotional and deep. I love tolerate it, but it’s also a “skip” for me in a way. Even though I love the music and the lyrics, it’s sometimes a bit heavy if you know what I mean. I think that this is a really relatable song, and in a way, we all have someone who “tolerates” us. Someone who doesn’t give us the same love and energy we give them. So, even though this song is so freaking beautiful, I often skip it when listening to the album as it’s really emotional and deep. My favorite lines from this song are “use my best colors for your portrait”, “I know my love should be celebrated… but you tolerate it” and “If it’s all in my head, tell me now”.

no body, no crime (feat. HAIM)

OH MY GOSH I LOVE THIS SONG. From the very first time that I heard it, and until today, I still feel the same- this song is freaking incredible. I love true crime, I love Taylor Swift… This is definitely a win for me! I really love HAIM’s voices as well, they’re so talented. I love listening to this song, and when I do I feel like a badass. My favorite part is the whole song, but if I had to choose just a few lines they’ll be: “that ain’t my Merlot on his mouth, that ain’t my jewelry on our joint account”, “she was with me, dude”, “good thing his mistress took out a big life insurance policy”, and “they think she did it, but they just can’t prove it, she thinks I did it, but she just can’t prove it”.

happiness

This song is another kind of a skip for me… Unlike tolerate it, I just don’t feel too connected or feel like I relate to this song too much. So it just became a sad song, one that I can’t relate to. So I usually skip it (still though I know it by heart and all lmao). My favorite lines are: “honey, when I’m above the trees, I see this for what it is”, “tell me, when did your winning smile begin to look like a smirk?”, and “all you want from me now is the green light of forgiveness… You haven’t met the new me yet, and I think she’ll give you that”.

dorothea

HEY HEY DOROTHEA lol I love this song so much! I remember not 100% understanding this song at first, but honestly I don’t think that I’ll ever fully understand any song. However, I love this song quite a lot, and feel like I could be a good friend of the speaker and their lover. I love the lyrics as well as the music and sounds, and it all really is quite magical in my opinion. It also reminds me of myself and my friend, for some reason. My favorite lines are: “and I got nothing but well wishes for ya”, “the stars in your eyes shined brighter in Tupelo”, “you’rе a queen sellin’ dreams, sellin’ makeup and magazines, from you, I’d buy anything” and “but are you still the same soul I met under the bleachers? Well, I guess I’ll never know, and you’ll go on with the show”.

coney island (feat. The National)

Okay okay hear me out… I actually don’t love this song, and for a long time I used to always skip it and quite disliked it. HOWEVER, the more that I actually listen to it, the better it gets? I’m slowly learning to like and appreciate this song. I currently still don’t have favorite lines, as I truly used to skip this one lmao.

ivy

I never skipped this one, but it’s quite far near the end so I didn’t get to hear it as much when listening to the whole album- I never reached that far into the album. However I love it a lot and try my hardest to listen to it more and more. I like the music and lyrics quite a lot though! 🙂 My favorite lines from this song are “oh, goddamn”, “my pain fits in the palm of your freezing hand, taking mine, but it’s been promised to another”, and “it’s the goddamn fight of my life, and you started it”.

cowboy like me

Oh my god I love this song so much ahhh it reminds me of Jess Mariano from Gilmore Girls. It’s so good!! I feel super ~mysterious~ while listening to it. I love the lyrics so much as well as the music and Taylor’s voice in this one. My favorite lines are: “and you asked me to dance but I said, “Dancin’ is a dangerous game””, “I’ve got some tricks up my sleeve”, “you had some tricks up your sleeve”, “now you hang from my lips like the Gardens of Babylon, with your boots beneath my bed, forever is the sweetest con “. (I just looked up what “Gardens of Babylon” meant… guess who’s tearing up in the middle of her biology class).

long story short

wowow love this song so much! Like I said last time, at first I thought that this was another song from August’s point of view, but it probably isn’t. Either way, I get Lover/reputation vibes from this song! It’s super fun and happy and I truly love it. I find this song quite loud, yet soft in a way. ANYWAYS here are my favorite lines: “actually, I always felt I must look better in the rear view”, “and we live in peace, but if someone comes at us, this time, I’m ready”, “no more keepin’ score, now I just keep you warm”, “past me, I wanna tell you not to get lost in these petty things”, “and he feels like home, if the shoe fits, walk in it everywhere you go” and lastly, “long story short, I survived”.

marjorie

This is such a sad song. In her eighth studio album, folklore, the 13th track is about Taylor’s grandfather. So in evermore, Taylor decided to dedicate her 13th track to her grandmother, Marjorie. This song is super sad, and hits hard. I honestly sometimes skip it as well, just because of how sad it is. My favorite part is when Taylor says “and if I didn’t know better, I’d think you were singing to me now” and then you can hear old recording of Taylor’s grandmother singing (she used to be on opera singer). This is super sad, and touching. This song gives me the chills every single time I listen to it. I would love it if Taylor Nation would restock the evermore vinyl on her store, because this would probably be the most emotional song to here played on a record player.

closure

When I first heard closure I used to laugh, because at the beginning it sounds like Taylor is playing around in her kitchen, making the sounds with her pots and pans. However, I’m a dedicated swiftie and I listened to it over and over and over again until I got used to it. Now I actually love it, and appreciate it for what it is! Yes, this obviously isn’t my favorite song, but it’s not bad. I like it 🙂 My favorite lines from the songs are: “yes, I got your letter, yes, I’m doing better”, and “I’m fine with my spite, and my tears, and my beers and my candles”.

evermore (feat. Bon Iver)

Since this is the last song, I rarely get to hear it when I’m listening to the whole album. And honestly I’m not sure what I think of this one. I like it, but not a lot. I mean, after loving exile to death, I expected something a bit different knowing Taylor and Bon Iver’s voice dynamic. I’m still getting used to hearing Taylor singing the lower part, and Bon Iver singing the higher! It’s a great song though, and overall I really like it. My favorite lines from the song are: “I rewind thе tape, but all it does is pause” and “gray November, I’ve been down since July”.

Other than that, Taylor also recently released the deluxe version, which has to bonus tracks on it. I still don’t know the tracks well enough in order to give an opinion on it, so I guess that I’ll wait with that! Hope that that’s okay with you 🙂

But yeah, other than that I’m finished! I hope that you enjoyed reading my blog. Thank you for choosing to do so! I really appreciate that. Love you always, take a good care of your physical and mental health. Don’t forget to drink tons of water! See you next time.

Toodles! 🧥

-Ocean girl.

How To Make Coconut Cookies! 🥥

Hello world!

How’s everyone? 🙂 I’m finally posting regularly, every Sunday and Thursday, which is great! Also my mum is doing a lot better, turns out that she simply felt a bit ill after taking the vaccine. I’ve also been able to volunteer a lot more, and BAKE! so yesterday I made some really good and sweet coconut cookies, and I wanted to share the recipe with you! The cookies took me about 30-40 minutes to make, including waiting for the cookies to bake in the oven. It’s probably the easiest recipe I’ve ever followed, and I took it out of an old book in Hebrew which my grandpa got me back in 2010 lol. You can get the book right here.

Ingredients-

  • 200g powdered sugar
  • 200g ground/shredded coconut
  • 2 eggs
  • 2 tablespoons cooking oil

Step one-

Take all of the ingredients, and mix everything together in a bowl. Then, take a baking tray and place a piece of parchment paper on it. Make small balls out of your mixed ingredients, and place the balls on the baking tray. Take a spoon (or your hands) and gently press the balls and flatten them. Make sure to leave some space between the cookies, because they will spread out in the oven!

Step two-

Place the tray in a pre-heated oven (about 150C) and wait for about 10-15 minutes! Then take the cookies out of the oven, let them cool down for some time and that’s it! Enjoy eating them 🙂

And that’s it you guys! Thank you so so much for reading! Let me know if you end up making these cookies, I’d love to know! Also thank you so much for 50+ followers, that’s insane. That’s more than the amount of students in my class lol. CRAZY. Thank you! Drink lots of water, treat yourself and stay safe! I love you and am proud and thankful for you! See you next Sunday!

Toodles! 🍪

-Ocean girl

AliExpress- Earrings Haul! 🍒

Hello world!

Happy 2021! How have you all been? I hope that all is well. I don’t really have many updates! Since the last blog, my country went into a third lockdown, so I haven’t gotten the chance to see my friends or family. I did get the vaccine though! Only once, I’m supposed to go in to get the second time in a few weeks. My mum haven’t been feeling too well lately, so I really really hope that it’s just the flu. ANYWAY! In today’s blog I wanted to share a small haul- earrings from AliExpress! I’ve really been into crazy, big, funny earrings lately, so here are some that I’ve gotten over the past few months. Press on the “name” of the earring in order to open the link to buy it 🙂 Also, I literally get paid nothing to say or do any of this. I genuinely love these earrings.

Water tank earringsThese are so cute! They took 2-3 weeks to arrive. They’re a bit big, and also they’re not perfect- the paint isn’t 100% great, but alas I really love them, especially considering how cheap they were. They cost 1.70$, shipping is free.

Piano earrings– These are one of my favorites. Again, they’re a bit big and heavy, the paint isn’t too perfect but for some reason it makes me love them even more? They just looked super vintage and old, which I like. They cost 1.70$, shipping is free.

Flower earrings– One of my favorite earrings, again. They’re from a different store, so I feel like they’re also a bit better in their quality. They also cost a tiny bit more though! They cost 2.03$, shipping is free.

Dice earrings– They might be my favorites. The quality is really really good, especially considering the price. They are quite light, even though they look a bit big. I love them so much! They cost 1.36$, shipping is free.

Mushroom earrings– I keep saying this, but those earrings are super cute. Again, the paint isn’t perfect, but still I feel like it makes them look special anyway. I currently love mushrooms and that whole aesthetic, so I was really happy when I found these! They cost 1.83$, shipping is free.

Loops earrings– OKAYY so I actually expected the loops to be a bit smaller, so I’m not sure how much I love these! They’re quite big, and I feel like I would love to wear them when I feel like dressing up as if I were a mum in the 60’s lol. If you’re looking for big hoops though then they’re great. They cost 1.17$, shipping to Israel is 1.18$.

Vintage angel earrings– They’re so cute! Probably the ones that I got most compliments on! About two of my teachers asked me to see them during zoom class. They’re bigger than expected, but alas they are super cheap and the quality is great for the price. They cost 1.36$, shipping to Israel is 0.26$.

Gummy bear earrings– I don’t have a lot to say about these earrings, I think that they’re really great! They’re kind of basic, but I think that they’re great especially considering how affordable they are. They cost 0.99$, shipping to Israel is 1.04$.

Cherry earrings– I love them! I am actually wearing the earring right now. I bought them because it reminded me of Harry Styles’ song, Cherry, which I love! The earrings are kind of big, and they are a little bit heavier compared to the other earrings that I got from the same store. But still they are freaking amazing and I love them. They cost 2.49$, the shipping is free.

Fan earrings– They’re really cute! The painting isn’t perfect, again, but I just found out that they’re handmade, so considering that and the price I think they’re totally worth it. They cost 1.60$, the shipping is free.

Dinosaurs earrings– They’re amazing! SO cute! I really love how small they are- compared to the rest of the earrings that I shared with you today. They’re super light, and they look really great. They remind me of the “dinosaurs eating people” song, and I bought them before I found the song on Tiktok so I feel like I won lol. They cost 2.11$, the shipping is free.

Butterfly earrings– I bought these a while ago, and when I first received them I was lowkey disappointed. They aren’t as pretty as they look on the picture on AliExpress, but after some time I got used to them and am now considering buying another pair in a different color. They cost 1.67$, the shipping is free.

And that’s it for today! 🙂

I hope that your 2021 will be much better then 2020! If you end up buying any of the earrings, let me know what you think of them! I’m pretty sure that if you use a few of my links you could get a discount, or at least that’s what it said when I copied them off the website. BUT ANYWAY. I also want to mention that if you have the ability to buy earrings from better shops, such as small businesses, it’s always better. This blog is just to show you some stuff that you can get if you don’t have the ability to afford buying from a small business. Take care of yourself, WEAR A MASK! and drink water.

Toodles! 🍒

-ocean girl

Book Review: Midnight Sun 🦇

Hello World!

How have you all been? I hope that all is well. I was planning on making this blog for a while now, but for some reason I have been putting it off. Maybe it’s because recently I discovered this game you might’ve heard of, “Among Us”, and I love it so much! My friends and I play it often, and I really recommend it if you’re looking for a new game new to play 🙂 But apart from that, I finished reading “Midnight Sun” by Stephenie Meyer, the author of the well- known book series the “Twilight” saga. The books are about a 17 years old girl named Bella Swan, that moves to live with her father in Forks, Washington. She falls in love with a guy named Edward Cullen, who happened to be a vampire. Of course many other things unfold in the books, but I wouldn’t know because I’ve never read past the first one (though after reading “Midnight Sun”, I feel like I should).

Even though the main subject of the books is Bella and Edward’s love story, there are many other things going on in Forks, that the two have to deal with. The series is being told from Bella’s perspective and her point of view. The series has four books if I remember correctly (though there are a few books that are somewhat related to the series that the author wrote later on).

“Midnight Sun” is another book in TTS series, except Meyer isn’t sharing a new plot- it’s the first book, “Twilight”, re-written from Edward Cullen’s point of view. Meyer started writing it way back in 2008, but stopped once the first twelve chapters got leaked to the internet. However, she still finished it and released it on August 4, 2020.

I pre-ordered the book, and received it some time during August. I finished it during the third week of September. But before I can share my thoughts on the book, let me tell you my history with “Twilight”.

So I actually got the book by accident. Kind of. Back in 2016, when I was 13, my dad and I were inside a “second hand” book shop. They had this sale of “buy 4, get 1 free” or something like that, and while my dad was paying he told me to pick the fifth book. I was caught off guard, I saw a book cover of two hands holding an apple that seemed familiar, so I was like “okay!” and got it. I later read it, and well, actually really liked it. I don’t know- I found it quite funny, easy to read and very romantic. I’ve read it quite a few times, but never went on to read the rest of the books in the series. Then later on, during 2017 (I think), I watched the first movie and hated it. “Hate” is a strong word, but I highly disliked it. Even though I love Robert Pattinson and Kristen Stewart and think that they’re both very talented, I really did not like how they represented the characters. It’s probably not their fault, but for example, something that I really liked about Edward in the books is how funny and sarcastic he is. In the movies, however, some stuff that was said in the books as a joke, came out as very serious and creepy. But! alas, I stopped watching the movies OR reading the books. The media told me that I shouldn’t like anything that has to do with vampires or “Twilight” at all, but more on that later.

Then, during quarantine, I was cleaning my book shelf when I saw the “Twilight” book, and decided to re-read it, as a 17 years old and not a child. Re-reading the book made me realize so many things. One, yes, there were many things that I no longer found romantic or cute. But two, I realized how the media made the “Twilight” saga seem like something so inappropriate and wrong, when in reality it’s actually a good book series. I’ve came across this video “Dear Stephenie Meyer” which explains it perfectly. You should totally watch it if you’re interested in TTS.

After re-reading “Twilight”, I found out that “Midnight Sun” was coming out, and knew that I had to read it. So I did. And here are my thoughts on it-

Let me start off by saying- I LOVED IT. Even though I’ve never read any other book in TTS, I already know that, in my opinion, it’s better then the rest of them. Because, well, I could relate to Edward’s mind better. The book is way longer, with over 700 pages, but that is because Edward is an over-thinker. And boy, so am I. In the book you get to learn more about the way Edward sees things (duh). You get to know his character better, and love him better. Something that made me really like him more is seeing how he’s being too hard on himself, and how insecure he is. Reading his perspective made him a whole lot more likable and relatable. Before, when I only read “Twilight”, I saw him as a snob. But now I got to see how he’s also dealing with stuff. Another person that you get to know more of is actually Bella. See, the original book is from her point of view, and you only get to know her from her own thoughts and feelings. But now, in “Midnight Sun”, a softer side of her is being shown. She comes off selfless, funnier and way smarter.

But going back to Edward, something that really bothered me about him was how he was basically telling Bella what to do all the time, being way overprotective and bossing her around. But after reading his side I realized how desperate he was to get that “yes” from her for every single thing, and how he always makes sure that she agrees to everything without his presence influencing her.

Of course we also get to know the Cullens and their history in “Midnight Sun”. We get to learn more about each of their stories, how they hunt, their dynamic as a family and even their inside jokes. We also get to read what Edward and his fam were doing while Bella was busy by herself in “Twilight”.

Honestly, I don’t really know what else to add besides what I already said. The book is VERY well written and you can clearly see how Meyer developed as an author over the years. Edward’s perspective is interesting, funny, and even got me to think about my own life and choices. If this is your first time reading TTS, I would recommend starting off with “Twilight” first. Maybe even finish the rest of the series, unlike me. Whatever you choose to do, I would recommend reading “Midnight Sun”. It’s a really good book, and I would definitely re-visit and read it again someday. Maybe even in the near future 🙂

Hopefully you enjoyed this review, as I tried my best to make it interesting and explain the backstory to everything instead of just saying “ya, it’s good”. Sorry again for taking so long to post blogs lately, online school is sucking the life out of me, like a vampire loll, but I definitely try ❤ Feel free to stick around in order to read more posts, or even follow my blog for future content. If you’ve read the book, let me know what you thought of it! I’d love to talk to you about it.

As always, please make sure to take care of yourself, of your mental and physical health. I will catch up with you soon in another blog 🙂

Toodles!! 🥯

-ocean girl

Life Update & “The Devil All The Time” Review! 🎥

Hello World!!

what’s up you guys? How have you been? I really hope that you’re doing well and that you’re safe and healthy. So maybe you have or haven’t noticed, but I’ve been gone for three weeks now. I had to take a break for reasons that I shall soon update you on. But first- we hit 23 followers? What the hell? My last blog post, 10 tips for working and studying from home did really well! So thank you so so much for that. I truly appreciate it! And welcome if you’re new 🙂 But now, I decided to come back and both update you on my life, and review a film that I recently watched- ” The Devil All The Time”. So enjoy your reading!

So actually, the last time that I posted was on exactly September 1st, the first day of school. I started my senior year, my last year in high school, and was really excited. Even though everything is so weird in the world, my school decided that it would be safe enough to go back to learning in person- but oh, they were wrong. I was in school for exactly four days, before I had to be isolated. Since this is our senior year, students from my grade decided to buy many fabric masks with our school’s logo on it, and give it to students from all over the school. It took exactly four days for the first kid to catch the virus, and since everyone wore those fabric masks, which, by the way, aren’t protective in any way, we were in big trouble. The guy that got sick with the virus is in my psychology class, and the day before he got diagnosed I spent 4 hours with him in class. Thankfully, we both wore the blue, store- bought, medical mask, and after taking a test to see if I had corona I tested negative, which was such a relief. However, I still had to be isolated in my room for two weeks just in case. Those two weeks were not fun, as besides going totally insane in my room, I also had to be taking classes in zoom. Each teacher thought (and they still do think so) that we are “so bored” at home, so I recieved crazy amount of homework. I lost motivation to do anything, which is why I haven’t been able to post anything in a whie. It’s been three days since those two weeks, and I already feel so much better. Something good that did came out of this is that I actually practiced playing my ukulele a lot, and also kinda learned to play the keyboard! I’m currently learning how to play “Clair de lune” by Debussy, and I truly love it 🙂 I also have been reading! so expect some book reviews coming up your way.

One thing that I realized while being stuck alone with my thoughts for forever, is that I really should live my life more. I enjoy telling stories, but I don’t have anything to say. Why? I should do what makes me happy, I should stop being on my phone all day. Watch a film if you can’t go out, read a book and educate yourself. Watch the sunrise from your window… I’m definitally going to be working on myself in that sense, and will be sure to post all about it here. Actually, I’m really planning to be a whole lot more active now. Hey, I’m at home anyway, right?

I’ve been truly blessed with parents who are overall good listeners, and I’ve sorta started seeing them as friends, in the best possible way, especially my mum. I’ve been also blessed with the cutests dog ever, and she definitally made this whole thing easier and full of laughter and joy. Other then that I’ve been meditating quite a lot, and buying the weirdst things on AliExpress. But that’s it for now, for my short life update. As I will be posting more often I could get into more details about my day 🙂

So. “The Devil All The Time”. Well, it is safe to say that I was really looking forward to that movie. You see, I’m a long time Spider- Man fan, and a big fan of Tom Holland in particular. I also feel like it is the destiny of every straight girl to fall in love with Robert Pattinson at some point, so there’s that. This movie is full of so many incredible actors and actresses, that I didn’t even care about the plot, I was simpy excited to watch their work. Well, I was disappointed.

The film was alright, the visuals were amazing. I just didn’t enjoy seeing the plot. I feel like I would have loved to hear the story on a crime podcast or something, but there was something about seeing everything unfold, and actually *seeing* things as they are, that was kinda hard to watch and even to process for me. The characters were all so very religious, and as a young adult who’s still trying to figure out her thoughts on the matter I found some parts hard to watch because of that. However, I will say this, I loved how in the end it all came around and everything got resolved. There were also many actors and actresses that I didn’t realised were in the movie until after seeing it, and it was super cool to see. I loved Robert’s acting- he was so good, I didn’t even think about him being Robert Pattinson, Edward Cullen or even Cedric Diggory- I saw Reverend Preston Teagardin, and no more. Tom’s acting was also great, though I kept seeing him as Peter Parker which personally to me was nice. I have seen Spider-Man more times then I could count so maybe that’s on me.

Overall I feel like I came to see this movie with big expectations, which is why I was let down. Also, this isn’t the kind of movie that I would normally watch, and like I said, the reason I wanted to see it in the first place was because of the cast. I feel like I simply watched it at the wrong time- maybe if I’ll re-watch it in a few years, my opinion would change 🙂 Would I recommend “The Devil All The Time” to a friend? Sure. I feel like this is the kind of movie that you have to watch and decide for yourself. Would I watch it again? Not right now, maybe in a few years.

Well, yeah!

So that’s it for today. I really hope that you enjoyed reading this blog, and I’m thankful that you’ve choosen to spend your time reading it. Also thank you again for 23 followers! That’s so cool. It’s like a whole small class haha.

Chile, I’ll talk to you all in my next post! If you haven’t make sure to follow “ocean girl” for more posts like this! And check out other posts if you’d like. As always, take care.

Toodles!! 🧦

-ocean girl

10 Tips For Working And Studying From Home 📇

Hello world!!

Hey! How have you been? Have you been taking care of yourself? What’s new? For me, I’ve finally finished working! I also got a hair cut and I like it quite a lot. I’m starting my senior year of high school next week, which is why I decided to write this blog- I wanted to go over my top 10 tips for staying productive while working and studying from home! These are tips that definitely work for me, and I hope that you’d find them helpful as well. Feel free to share your favorite tips in the comments! SO, let’s get into it-

#1 Adjest A Daily Routine!

This one might be kind of obvious to some of you, but it reallly is important! By having a routine, you’re accustoming yourself to do things in the right time. This is something that really helped me during online school- I would wake up every morning at the same time, eat breakfast then join class… I would have a specific time for everything, which helped me get things done- I knew that I needed to get up by 8:00, so I would do so instead of staying in bed with my phone. If I knew that by 16:00 I needed to finish my homework, then I’d do so instead of procrastinating. By having a routine you’re getting used to living a certain life style, so make it a productive one!

#2 Workout Before Starting Your Day!

So I know that a lot of people might not like this one, but holy frick… trust me. If you’re normally working outside of your house, you’re probably used to walking a lot and doing activities without even thinking about it. But now, in quarantine, we’re all stuck at home so we don’t really do any fitness activities without thinking about it anymore. Doing exercises is really important for your body and health, and even mental health (again, especially during quarantine). Plus, if you’ve ever worked out you know that amazing feeling you get once you’re done. So working out in the morning will actually give you energy and motivation to start your day, AND it would be very good for your health.

#3 Get Ready In The Morning

Usually, before going to work or to school, you’d change out of you PJs into your everyday clothes, you’d put on your make up, brush your hair… Just because you’re at home, it doesn’t mean that you should stop doing that! Getting ready, even if it just means putting on a new t- shirt and sweatpants will totally put you into a work mode! And if not, it would at the very least change the lazy vibe that usually comes with wearing a PJs.

#4 Have A Permanent Workplace

Whether it’s a desk, a specific chair or a place on the sofa, having a permanent workplace is important for getting into work mode. By having a specific desk where you sit and only do your job by, you’re regulating yourself that whenever you’re sitting by that desk, you should be doing your job. Otherwise, if you’re sleeping, watching TV and working in the same place, these things will get mixed together, and it would be easier to distract you.

#5 Making A “To Do” List

A bit well- known one, but again, really helpful. By sitting every morning and writing down everything that you need to get done today, it’ll be actually easier to get stuff done. You wouldn’t forget anything, and everything will be laid out in a very easy and organized way. Plus, once you’ve finished one of the tasks that are on the list, crossing it out will give you the motivation to do more and to cross more things off the list (or at least, that’s how it works for me :)).

#6 Only Work During Work Hours!

While you’re at work or school, you’re only working during very specific hours, and once you’re done- you’re done. When you arrive at home after a long day of working, you probably will NOT be working again. So try to do just that, WHILE you’re at home! Kinda like having a routine- decide on specific hours, in which you will be working. But once the time is up, don’t work anymore. It is easier to have your day all mixed up while you’re at home, because no one is telling you when you should work and when you shouldn’t, but try to be your own boss. Tell yourself when to start, and when to finish. It’ll make getting tasks done easier, and it will give you time for yourself, which is just as important.

#7 Take Breaks!

No one is expecting you to be superman! It’s important to take breaks, for you mental and physical health! Go for a run, eat a snack, watch that one episode of “friends”. It’s okay to take breaks when you feel like you’ve been working for long enough. Otherwise, you’d burn out! Be careful with that though, make sure that you’re not taking too long of a break. Know when your break starts, and when you should be getting back to work. Set a timer if needed 🙂

#8 Just Do It!

As a perfectionist and a procrastinator, I know how hard starting a project and getting things done can be sometimes. But something that I have to remind myself everyday is- the only way to get something done, is to actually do it. Unless you get up and write, your essay will not be ready for submition. Unless you get up and do your dishes, they will not be clean. Understanding that in order to get things done you actually have to do is quite important if you want to be able to work effectively from home. Another helpful tip if you’re really struggling with that is simply to count to five. Tell yourself “Once I finish counting to five, I will get out of bed”, and then really do so!

#9 Don’t Do Things That You Wouldn’t Be Doing At Work

If you wouldn’t go to sleep at 3 am during a school’s night, don’t do it. If you wouldn’t be getting up in the middle of work in order to fold your laundry, don’t do it. If you wouldn’t be watching Netflix in the middle of class, don’t do it. It’s that simple- just like setting time for work and time for yourself, seperate your home life from work and/or school. Don’t be doing things that you wouldn’t normally be doing during the week- even though you’re working from home, you’re still working. So treat it like a real job.

#10 Have A Weekly Schedule

Make yourself a weekly schedule! This tip is a mix of tip #1 and tip #5- at the begining of each week, set yourself a schedule- when’s your day off? what are you doing this Saturday? when are you going to study for that test? But also try to set a routine- for example, decide on one day off a week, which will always be your day off (if that’s possible).

ANDD WE’RE DONE!

This is all I’ve got for you today. I hope that you will find these tips helpful! Good luck for you if you’re starting a new school year- tell me what are your tips to be more motivated and productive at home. Also, feel free to follow my blog if you’d like to see more posts from me 🙂

Thank you for choosing to spend your time on my post. It means a lot, and I really hope that you enjoyed it. As always, take care. I will see you next Sunday 🙂

Toodles! 💝

-Ocean girl.


Story Time- A Day At The Beach

Hello World!

How have you all been? I hope that you’ve been taking care of yourself. I started working last week, trying to save some money before school starts, which is why I had to miss one week of posting. I’m back now though! I still have to catch up with some of your blog posts, so I’ll be doing that asap. My last blog post was a kinda a heavy one, which is why I decided that this week I wanted to post something a bit more chill and fun. I still wanted to be creative though, so I tried telling you a story time of my day at the city and the beach with my friend, in a more of a creative, story-like way! I’ve never done anything like this, but I kinda like how it turned out. Let me know what you think about it, and enjoy your reading!

Wednesday, 5 August 2020 – going to the city + the beach with my friend

It was a warm, sunny Wednesday. School has been out for a while now and students were filling up the streets, the malls and the beaches, happy that the weight of the last year was finally lifted off their shoulders. Tel Aviv was the main attraction for these people- a big, beautiful city thats got it all- high buildings, malls, stores full with almost everything you’ve ever dreamed of, a sunny beach with many parasols decorating the sand, making it the most colorful place you’ve ever seen. People from all across the country made plans to visit the city and enjoy a day off, as did my friend, Cydney, and I. We woke up early, and met at the nearest train station. We were wearing our masks, of course, and had to print a special ticket for the train at home. Before getting on the train, we went inside the small bakery that was located by the station, and we each payed for two small and fresh croissants. Soon after that we were already sitting inside the train, preparing ourselves for the two hours ride ahead of us. But, unlike what we thought, the time flew by quicky- we each read a book that we’ve brought from home, listened to music and ate the croissants. Soon enough the train stopped, and a male’s voice echoed inside of the train – “the train will now arrive at the city Tel Aviv”. Excited and nervous, Cydney and I collected our bags and got off the train.

The train station in Tel Aviv was under the ground, so we had to walk up a long row of black stairs. When we finally made it to the top, the sun light washed our faces as we glared up to the high buildings, taking in the fresh air. The roads were packed, but the noises coming from them were nice, different. Cydney and I looked at each other and smiled. “Should we head to the beach? do you know where we should go?” Cydney asked me, and I replied, “I think I know where it is. I know where it’s supposed to be”. Happy and excited, we were on our way. We walked down the streets, looking all around us with excitment. We both live in quite a small town, and after being quarantined in our houses for a good 5 months, coming to the big city was a good change of air. We kept on walking for some time, exchanging stories from quarantine- I told her all about my dog, and the book that I was reading. I also told her how excited I was because Taylor Swift just released a new album. She told me about her family and books, and how excited she is to see her grandparents again. At some point we entered a store and bought there some snacks to eat at the beach.

After about a good 40 minutes we kinda… got lost. Yes, we knew where we were supposed to go, but we weren’t sure how we were gonna get there. After using google maps we realized that the way to the beach was quite long, and that we needed to take the bus. We walked around the city, searching for a bus station. The walk was quite tiring, for the sun wasn’t so fresh and warm after such a long time walking- it started to burn our skin and give us a headache. But sure enough we soon found the bus station, just as our bus arrived. We hopped on it quickly, paid for the ride, and sat down. During the ride we barely looked outside the window, as for as far as we knew, our stop was the last one. We talked, laughed and made jokes. After about 15-20 minutes, I realized that something has to be wrong. It took us way too long to arrive, and after taking a closer look at where we were, I realized that we did take the right bus, but that it was going the wrong way. It took us forther away from the beach rather then getting us closer to it. I hesitated telling that to Cydney, since we already walked for 40 minutes because of me. But after two more stops I pulled her arm, took our bags and said “I think we should get off here”. At first she didn’t ask many questions, but as soon as we got off the bus she turned to look at me and said, “we were going the wrong way, weren’t we”. “Yes, but that’s totally okay, we got this, all we need to do now is cross the road and take the same bus,” I said. “Don’t worry!” I added, knowing that she had a tendency to freak out over stuff like that. “Sure…” she said, as we started to cross the road.

When we first got off the bus I didn’t pay a close attention to our surrounding, as I was busy with calming down Cydney. But now I realized how strange the place was- it was a lot more crowded and loud. The streets weren’t as clean as they were before, and the only people walking around seemed to be religious (judging from their clothes). It didn’t bother me much, but then a different bus passed by and Cydney said, “hey… we’re no longer in Tel Aviv, we’re in Bnei Brak!” Bnei Brak is a religious town, right by Tel Aviv. She pointed at the bus, which had a sign that said “Tel Aviv”, meaning that it was heading that way. I looked aside, and saw a group of teenage boys, playing soccer while being all dressed in black suits “…..Shit”. I said. “My parents are going to kill me!” Cydney said, and I knew that she was right- her parents did not let her go too far away by herself, and it was a miracle that they even allowed her to come with me to the city. “Hey hey, we’re on our way to Tel Aviv! really, don’t worry”, I tried to calm her down again. As soon as we arrived at the bus station a bus stopped, and we just hopped on it, asked whether it was going to Tel Aviv or not, and when the driver told us that that’s where it was headed we both took a seat and waited.

The ride was about 30 minutes long, and we had to switch to a different bus in the middle, but it was fine. We listened to music- I played her “august” by Taylor Swift and she played me “November Rain” by Guns N’ Roses. We both were feeling a lot better, knowing that we were now safe inside of Tel Aviv, and were heading in the right direction. Soon after getting on the second bus Cydney started to make jokes about how stupid our luck was, and it immediately broke the ice. Once we started catching glimpses of the sea, I felt even better, as the sea is my “safe place” (heck, even my name on here is “ocean girl”!).

Once we got off the bus we faced a whole different view from the one before- a long, dry road that lead to the sand. The sand spread out beside the road, matching it. Above those two were the blue sky, fitted in big, fluffy clouds. The sea was closing in everything, completing the picture with a touch of light blue. “Yay! We finally made it!” Cydney said, and I smiled back in return. We did make it, finally. It was 14:46 already, and so we decided to change quickly and go for a swim.

After a short visit in the restroom, and after renting a parasol on the beach, we layed down on our spreaded towels and sighed with relief, breathing in the salty air. We ate our snacks, made jokes and talked for some good time. It was a bit different then our previous conversations- we now had nothing to worry about, nowhere to go to. We were simpy sitting by the beach, enjoying life.

Soon after we got tired of sitting and talking, so we decided to actually try to go into the sea. We placed our phones, wallets and keys inside of a plastic bag, and buried it in the sand beneath our towels. That way, if someone tried to steal our stuff it would take them a longer time to reach it, and we would be able to notice it by then. We cleaned after ourselves and walked to the sea. The water wasn’t too warm or too cold- it was just right. We placed our legs inside, letting the salty water wash all of the day’s dirt that stuck on to our flip flops. We laughed as the wind brushed out our hair from our faces, enjoying the peaceful moment, trying to forget all of the worries and the stress that we’ve experienced in the last five months.

The way back was short and simple unlike what we went through in the morning. Finding the right bus was way easier now, and we arrived at the mall (in which the train station is) 20 minutes after deciding to leave the beach. We still had an hour to waste before our train arrived, so we decided to go and find a place to eat. Cydney ended up ordering pasta, while I ate a salomon bagel. It was really good. We still had some more time, so we decided to spend it inside the shops- we looked around, pretty tired at that point, and tried to enjoy ourselves.

While sitting inside of the train, we each listened to our own music. I listened to some classical music (yes yes, I know how it may be boring for some people, but I find it fascinating) and actually fell asleep on the way home. Most of the time we would both look at the changing views outside the window, and every now and then one of us would make a comment about the day, sharing funny memories and such. We were mostly quiet. When the view became more similar, and we started to recognize some buildings, I said my goodbye to Cydney, hugged her and thanked her for the awesome company. I got off the train one stop before her, and made it just in time for the bus that took me home. And that was how my amazing day at the city and the beach with my friend went. It was really fun and funny, and it was something that I’m sure I’ll remember for a long time now. Of course, Cydney is not my friend’s real name, but it seemed rather cute so I choose to use it 🙂

I would like to truly thank you so much for spending your time reading this blog, or any of my oldest ones that you’ve read. It means so much to me, and I truly hope that you enjoyed reading my posts as much as I enjoy writing them. Also, this feels like another great time to note that English isn’t my native language, so please don’t roast me if I made any mistakes 🙂

Subscribe to the blog if you want to see more stuff from me, and feel free to share whatever has been on your mind lately. I’m a pretty good listener 🙂 Take care of yourself- you deserve it. See you next Sunday, hopefully!

Toodles! 🥰

-ocean girl

Losing A Friend

(Trigger Warning- I will be talking about a friend that I lost last year. )

Hello World!

How have you all been doing? I hope that everything is well and that you’re managing to stay somewhat sane during this weird time. Lately I’ve been able to read a lot more, I just finished reading my second book since the beginning of august, which is two books more then I read this entire year. “Me Before You”, by Jojo Moyes, is one of them. I would love to write a review on that book in another post someday maybe, but in this blog I would like to talk about the feelings that I felt after finishing it. This book talks a lot about life and death, and it really got me thinking about something that I’ve been putting off for a long time.

When I was eleven, just going into 6th grade, my parents told me that we will be moving to a different country and that I will be going to a new school. Of course, I was sad, scared and nervous. I never switched schools before and I didn’t know anyone from that country. We moved there during summer break, about a month before school started. My mum signed me up to the girls’ volleyball team that started training in the summer, so I could get to know some of the girls before starting 6th grade. This was probably the best thing that she could’ve done, even though I hated every second of training at the time. I knew no one, I had no intention of getting to know anyone either. I was mad at my parents for taking me away from my friends, for putting me into a school that I didn’t want to go to. Nonetheless, I still went to every single practice. I saw all the girls whispering and looking at me, and I felt awful. One time during practice I locked eyes with one of the girls, let’s call her Bella. At that moment I just knew: we were not going to be friends. She was kinda mean to me in a polite way, if you know what I mean. I didn’t really care at the time, I simply left it as it was. On my first day of school I found out that she was in my class. We were pretty mean to each other- blocking each other’s exit, giving each other death stares from across the room, etc. Looking back, I really don’t know why.

Around a month after that first day all of the girls from my class were playing volleyball during our break time, including Bella and myself. At some point during the game, one of us, I can’t remember which one, passed the ball to the other. We both slowly started only passing the ball to each other, without saying a word. After that break was over, Bella and I started being nice to each other and slowly became friends.

We were never BFFs, but we were on pretty good terms. I was her classmate, and she was mine. I remember one time, when I got to school early and only the both of us were there, she showed me her legs, after shaving them for the first time. She was so excited and happy, feeling quite mature, I assume. When I asked her if a cut that she got from the razor blade hurt, she smiled and said, “You do what you gotta do”. We both laughed at that, and all was well.

Two years later my parents told me that we were moving again. I saw that one coming, because I knew that we would only stay in our new house for a short time but, I was still really sad. On my last field trip with my class, a few months before the end of 7th grade, I decided to go to all of the students who I ever been mean to and apologize (it was only Bella and another boy lmao I wasn’t a bully, don’t come at me). I went up to her and said sorry for my behaviour at the beginning of the previous year. She smiled at me, said that she was also sorry, and we hugged. It seemed to make her quite happy, and maybe she felt like we were much closer afterwards, because she threw me a “goodbye party” at her house. I was very surprised, but I was also young so I didn’t think too much about it. She hanged up many photos of me and my friends, and glued an image of me on a notebook in which the rest of the class wrote their phone numbers and nice messages. After the party I said goodbye to everyone, and we moved. In the next two years I didn’t think of her very often, and if I did then it was only because we sometimes talked on snapchat or I saw her instagram stories or photos. I never really thought about how she was doing- after all, I never felt like we were really close. To me, she was mainly a classmate.

But at the beginning of my freshman year in high school (in a different school of course) she got diagnosed with cancer. I had her in my mind, and I would follow her stories and updates on social media, but I didn’t feel like it was my place to say anything to her. We haven’t talked in two years, and it seemed to me kinda fake and wrong to simply text her saying how much I love her, when we both know that I would’ve never done so if she wasn’t sick. I also didn’t want to offend her for that same reason. She was pretty positive on social media, but our mutual friends told me otherwise. in the beginning of my sophmore year, when she got really sick, I decided to dm her on instagram. We chatted for a bit- I told her that I wasn’t sure whether to text her or not, because we really aren’t that close, but that I do care for her very much and am here if she ever needs me. She texted me back, saying thank you and promising to update me if anything changed. She never did, and I never asked.

Around august 2019, right after I returned from summer camp, my mum took me aside and told me that Bella passed away a few days before. Normally I’m quite an emotional person (I’m a pisces, for god’s sake!) but I was okay. I was in a bit of a shock, but I didn’t cry. I didn’t know what to do, really. It felt very weird, like I was supposed to be sad, but also not, because I haven’t seen her in longer then three years. During my junior year in high school I still thought of her every now and then. Our mutual friends would post her pictures on the instagram, saying how much they miss her. But it wasn’t until I read “Me Before You” that it hit me- she was once very much alive, but no longer is.

It was very diffucult for me (and it still is) to wrap my mind around the idea that she simply isn’t here. Because I live too far away from that area, and because she wasn’t that present in my life, I never felt that change. Until now. It’s terrifying to think that a few years ago I saw her slowly growing up- playing volleyball, shaving her legs for the first time, hunging out with her friends- but her life stopped. She never turned into the woman that I saw her turning into. It’s terrifying. It made me realise that no one is safe- anything could happen at any given moment, and you will never know when’s the last time that you’d experience something, or see someone.

I feel pretty bad for the way that I acted- I should’ve tried harder, check in with Bella on a daily basis… even though I didn’t see her as a very close friend, she clearly saw something in me if she decided to throw me a goodbye party at her house. I know that I never wanted to hurt her, which is why I never insisted to recieve updates from her- I didn’t want her to think that I’m only asking because I feel bad. I’m very glad that at some point I did say something, I did try to recover our friendship- but after I sent that message the ball was in her court- it was her choice whether to keep on texting me or not. Or was it?

I still have no idea what to say or how to cope, because it all just hit me two hours ago. I really felt the need to share all of this with someone- so there you are.

But I guess that that’s it. I’m still thinking about her, especially now, and I was wondering- how to you deal with something like that? It there a specific thing that I could do? I normally don’t get many comments on my blog posts, which is fine- I still had the opportunity to get this off my chest- but know that if you also are dealing with a loss of a loved someone, I am more them happy to hear you out. Feel free to share your story and struggles in the comments- I might not be able to understand, but I can help lift some of the weight off your shoulder.

Thank you so much for choosing to spend your time on reading my blog. It realy means a lot. Take care of yourself!

Toodles! 🔮

-ocean girl

Using The CeraVe Products For Two Weeks- Review 🧴

Hello world!

How have you all been? What’s new? I finally started my summer break, which is super exciting! Even though I’m stuck at home just like most of you (I believe) I still have more time for myself. I started to read again, and it’s really fun and amazing. I’m actually currently getting a card for the library! If you’d like to, you can tell me what’s your favorite book in the comments, and I’ll be sure to check it out 🙂 I’ve also been able to talk with my friends more, and hang out with my dog!

So apart from those things I’ve also been able to use social media more, for better and for worse. I follow a bunch of skincare pages on instagram and tik tok, and I’ve noticed that almost all of them post many good things about the “CeraVe” skincare company. I’ve been struggling with acne and dry/ oily skin for some time now, so I’ve decided to give it a try. My mum and I went to the store, and got the “Hydrating Cleanser” and the “Moisturising Lotion” by CeraVe, and I’ve been using just these two products along with sunscreen for around two weeks.

Before starting to share with you how it effected my skin, I think that it would be more helpful if you knew what my skin type is. So my skin is basically what they call “combination skin”, meaning that my “T” zone (forehead, nose and chin) is oily, while the rest of my face is dry. Here’s a sketch I found on the internet that might be helpful for a better understanding.

So the products that I bought were for normal to dry skin, as I couldn’t find for a combination skin. My first impression of the products was great! The texture was so soft and light. I did not like how the cleanser felt on my face, it felt quite oily, but the lotion was so great, and I got used to it after using it for a couple of days. The lotion dissolved quite quickly on the skin, as you can see in the pictures, which I counted as a pro.

After one week of using it, I didn’t see that much of a difference in the T zone, but my cheeks were so soft and felt clean. Usually I tend to have very red cheeks, and I could actually see that they became a bit pinkish and not so red like they usually are after using the products. After two weeks of using both of the products, I was able to see a slight change in my forehead, and whenever I got a new zit, even though it wouldn’t go away over night, it definitely became way less swollen and kinda dryed out quickly.

In conclusion, I think that the products did a very good job overall. They were meant for dry skin, so where my skin is dry, they worked perfectly fine. I think that if you’re looking to try out some new skincare products you really shoud give these a go, just make sure that the products that you pick are meant for your skin type. If you don’t know your skin type, you can simply look it up! There are also many quizzes that you can take to find out. Also, I would recommend to also continue using other products- when I tried them, I stopped using my toner, serums and more, which is maybe why it didn’t work as much as the reviews claim it would! But I don’t know, I’m not a proffessional lol. Either way, I would give the “Hydrating Cleanser” 3/5 stars, and the “Moisturising Lotion” 4/5 stars.

And I guess that that’s about it! I’ve never actually done a review before, so, I’m hoping to get better and better 🙂 Thank you so much for choosing to spend you time reading my blog, it means a lot. If you’d like to, you can check out other blog posts! You should be able to see them if you scroll down a bit. You can also follow my blog if you’d like to see more from me!

As always, take care.

Toodles! 🧼

-ocean girl

I’m Back! quarantine update 🦋

Hello World!

How are you? again, it’s been a while. Sorry, will work on that. So just like all of you, I’ve been in quarantine for the past two months. It’s been 70 days now, I believe! I’m very lucky that I got to spend this time with my family, inside my home. My heart goes out to all the people that had to spend time outside their country, or alone! Stay strong, it’s almost over.

It’s getting easier here, and we slowly are going back to normal. Yesterday was my first day back in school, and it was exciting yet scary at the same time. We all had to wear masks, obviously, it was so weird seeing everyone again, after such a long time. We never really said goodbye before quarantine, so it was a bit strange, because nothing has changed, yet everything has changed. I felt like everything was unreal, like I was watching a movie through somebody else’s eyes- getting on the bus, walking to my school from the bus station, walking inside my school’s hallway, sitting inside my classroom… I was only there for a few hours, to take a test in biology, but it was still weird as hell.

Well, but I’m actually here to talk about other things. Firstly- QUARANTINE. You, yes you, how was your quarantine? did you take a good care of yourself?

I could definitly say that I didn’t. Yes, I took care of my skin, cleaned my room, and submitted my school work. Not having exams stright up made the whole experience easier. However, I never had time to do the things that I really like and am passionate about. I kept wasting my time on Netflix and TikTik, beating myself up whenever I did something before my school work. Even though I wasn’t dealing with school as much, I was dealing with my family. They contantly got on my nerves, and dealing with them caused me a lot of stressed. And there were my thoughts.

I find it quite amusing how much power your thoughts have over you. They create your reality, your future and your past. They can go from making you the happiest person on this earth, to the lonelist you’ve ever been. While I was living normal life, before this whole corona mess, they didn’t bother me as much. Sure, I was still thinking of course, but I was too busy to stay focused on the contant of my thoughts for too long. It was too noisey. Life went by quickly, day and night. I would brings myself down at times, or pick myself up, but it will all happen so fast that by the next day I would forget about everything. But when you’re constantly alone, when you have no distractions or background noise to keep them out, you have no choice but to let them in.

I was always told that I have a brilliant imaginathin, that I should be a story teller. I remember that when I felt lonely in middle school, I would imagine a whole new world, that revolved around me. In that world I had friends, I was funny, pretty, smart. People had interest in me. I would always turn to that world when I needed it, but sometimes I went there too often, and it started to mix with my reality. During quarantine, the same thing happened to me again. Well, more or less.

My thoughts weren’t as happy and creative as they were in middle school. I no longer imagined a whole new world- but I changed the one that I was living in. I took in my reality- my friends, my family, even myself- and imagined it all again, accourding to the mood that I was in. If I was sad, I would think of how awful my life is- how mean my friends are, how much they don’t care for me… I would also built my future in my head, based off of these thoughts- my life would be a mess, I would keep on failing, etc. I would also think of stuff that I didn’t want to think of, such as what it would be like when my grandparents, parents or even my dog died. I would imagine most of this at night, so for a good month and a half I would cry myself to sleep each time.

I wasn’t easy getting myself out of this state of mind, and still up to this day I sometimes start crying out of the blue because I thought of something terrible. My parents or friends don’t really know about this, which made it so much more difficult- not having someone to talk to. But I started to get better slowly. first I realized that something was wrong. I decided to start journaling. I wrote in my journal every single day- first the small things, such as what I did that day or what I had for lunch. But then I started sharing whatever was on my heart, and it felt so much better. I felt like someone was listening to me, but without trying to give me advice or tell me what is going on with me. I could also go deeper into how I was feeling, because it was just me- no one could ever take that information and use it against me. I also started writing poems and songs, and I played my ukulele and guitar quite often. I even got a pen pal to keep me company 🙂

What I’m trying to say is, I made it. I found ways to help myslf, and by sticking to my techniques and routines I made it work. I wasn’t feeling ready yet to start writing in my blog until now, so.. I’m back? I always say that but I don’t think I ever really do come back. Well I am now. I’m gonna try to. During all of the thinking I did, I also came to a realization- literally, anything could happen at any given moment. If you tried to talk to me five months ago, I would have never believed you that a fricking pandemic is gonna shut the whole world down. But here we are. So I decided that even though I’m in year 11, and life is stressful as heck, I should still find some time to do the things that I truly enjoy and love doing. Writing in this blog is one of them. Creating music is another.

So, here’s me inviting you to join me. see this as a new “welcome to my blog” post. Stick around if you’d like so see and read more of what I’m up to- I promise you that I would most definitly keep this thing alive now. I also created a new instagram account- @oceangirl.blog – follow me there! I would love to talk with you, and I will let you know there whenever I post something new.

Please check in with yourself, and do whatever you can to help you. You are important. Feel free to share down in the comments what is currently going on on your mind, and how you handled quarantine (or how you’re still handling it).

Much love, and take care.

Toodles!  🌺  

-ocean girl

P.S. The back camera on my phone broke!! All of the pictures in this blog are quite old lmao 🙂