Life Update & “The Devil All The Time” Review! ๐ŸŽฅ

Hello World!!

what’s up you guys? How have you been? I really hope that you’re doing well and that you’re safe and healthy. So maybe you have or haven’t noticed, but I’ve been gone for three weeks now. I had to take a break for reasons that I shall soon update you on. But first- we hit 23 followers? What the hell? My last blog post, 10 tips for working and studying from home did really well! So thank you so so much for that. I truly appreciate it! And welcome if you’re new ๐Ÿ™‚ But now, I decided to come back and both update you on my life, and review a film that I recently watched- ” The Devil All The Time”. So enjoy your reading!

So actually, the last time that I posted was on exactly September 1st, the first day of school. I started my senior year, my last year in high school, and was really excited. Even though everything is so weird in the world, my school decided that it would be safe enough to go back to learning in person- but oh, they were wrong. I was in school for exactly four days, before I had to be isolated. Since this is our senior year, students from my grade decided to buy many fabric masks with our school’s logo on it, and give it to students from all over the school. It took exactly four days for the first kid to catch the virus, and since everyone wore those fabric masks, which, by the way, aren’t protective in any way, we were in big trouble. The guy that got sick with the virus is in my psychology class, and the day before he got diagnosed I spent 4 hours with him in class. Thankfully, we both wore the blue, store- bought, medical mask, and after taking a test to see if I had corona I tested negative, which was such a relief. However, I still had to be isolated in my room for two weeks just in case. Those two weeks were not fun, as besides going totally insane in my room, I also had to be taking classes in zoom. Each teacher thought (and they still do think so) that we are “so bored” at home, so I recieved crazy amount of homework. I lost motivation to do anything, which is why I haven’t been able to post anything in a whie. It’s been three days since those two weeks, and I already feel so much better. Something good that did came out of this is that I actually practiced playing my ukulele a lot, and also kinda learned to play the keyboard! I’m currently learning how to play “Clair de lune” by Debussy, and I truly love it ๐Ÿ™‚ I also have been reading! so expect some book reviews coming up your way.

One thing that I realized while being stuck alone with my thoughts for forever, is that I really should live my life more. I enjoy telling stories, but I don’t have anything to say. Why? I should do what makes me happy, I should stop being on my phone all day. Watch a film if you can’t go out, read a book and educate yourself. Watch the sunrise from your window… I’m definitally going to be working on myself in that sense, and will be sure to post all about it here. Actually, I’m really planning to be a whole lot more active now. Hey, I’m at home anyway, right?

I’ve been truly blessed with parents who are overall good listeners, and I’ve sorta started seeing them as friends, in the best possible way, especially my mum. I’ve been also blessed with the cutests dog ever, and she definitally made this whole thing easier and full of laughter and joy. Other then that I’ve been meditating quite a lot, and buying the weirdst things on AliExpress. But that’s it for now, for my short life update. As I will be posting more often I could get into more details about my day ๐Ÿ™‚

So. “The Devil All The Time”. Well, it is safe to say that I was really looking forward to that movie. You see, I’m a long time Spider- Man fan, and a big fan of Tom Holland in particular. I also feel like it is the destiny of every straight girl to fall in love with Robert Pattinson at some point, so there’s that. This movie is full of so many incredible actors and actresses, that I didn’t even care about the plot, I was simpy excited to watch their work. Well, I was disappointed.

The film was alright, the visuals were amazing. I just didn’t enjoy seeing the plot. I feel like I would have loved to hear the story on a crime podcast or something, but there was something about seeing everything unfold, and actually *seeing* things as they are, that was kinda hard to watch and even to process for me. The characters were all so very religious, and as a young adult who’s still trying to figure out her thoughts on the matter I found some parts hard to watch because of that. However, I will say this, I loved how in the end it all came around and everything got resolved. There were also many actors and actresses that I didn’t realised were in the movie until after seeing it, and it was super cool to see. I loved Robert’s acting- he was so good, I didn’t even think about him being Robert Pattinson, Edward Cullen or even Cedric Diggory- I saw Reverend Preston Teagardin, and no more. Tom’s acting was also great, though I kept seeing him as Peter Parker which personally to me was nice. I have seen Spider-Man more times then I could count so maybe that’s on me.

Overall I feel like I came to see this movie with big expectations, which is why I was let down. Also, this isn’t the kind of movie that I would normally watch, and like I said, the reason I wanted to see it in the first place was because of the cast. I feel like I simply watched it at the wrong time- maybe if I’ll re-watch it in a few years, my opinion would change ๐Ÿ™‚ Would I recommend “The Devil All The Time” to a friend? Sure. I feel like this is the kind of movie that you have to watch and decide for yourself. Would I watch it again? Not right now, maybe in a few years.

Well, yeah!

So that’s it for today. I really hope that you enjoyed reading this blog, and I’m thankful that you’ve choosen to spend your time reading it. Also thank you again for 23 followers! That’s so cool. It’s like a whole small class haha.

Chile, I’ll talk to you all in my next post! If you haven’t make sure to follow “ocean girl” for more posts like this! And check out other posts if you’d like. As always, take care.

Toodles!! ๐Ÿงฆ

-ocean girl

10 Tips For Working And Studying From Home ๐Ÿ“‡

Hello world!!

Hey! How have you been? Have you been taking care of yourself? What’s new? For me, I’ve finally finished working! I also got a hair cut and I like it quite a lot. I’m starting my senior year of high school next week, which is why I decided to write this blog- I wanted to go over my top 10 tips for staying productive while working and studying from home! These are tips that definitely work for me, and I hope that you’d find them helpful as well. Feel free to share your favorite tips in the comments! SO, let’s get into it-

#1 Adjest A Daily Routine!

This one might be kind of obvious to some of you, but it reallly is important! By having a routine, you’re accustoming yourself to do things in the right time. This is something that really helped me during online school- I would wake up every morning at the same time, eat breakfast then join class… I would have a specific time for everything, which helped me get things done- I knew that I needed to get up by 8:00, so I would do so instead of staying in bed with my phone. If I knew that by 16:00 I needed to finish my homework, then I’d do so instead of procrastinating. By having a routine you’re getting used to living a certain life style, so make it a productive one!

#2 Workout Before Starting Your Day!

So I know that a lot of people might not like this one, but holy frick… trust me. If you’re normally working outside of your house, you’re probably used to walking a lot and doing activities without even thinking about it. But now, in quarantine, we’re all stuck at home so we don’t really do any fitness activities without thinking about it anymore. Doing exercises is really important for your body and health, and even mental health (again, especially during quarantine). Plus, if you’ve ever worked out you know that amazing feeling you get once you’re done. So working out in the morning will actually give you energy and motivation to start your day, AND it would be very good for your health.

#3 Get Ready In The Morning

Usually, before going to work or to school, you’d change out of you PJs into your everyday clothes, you’d put on your make up, brush your hair… Just because you’re at home, it doesn’t mean that you should stop doing that! Getting ready, even if it just means putting on a new t- shirt and sweatpants will totally put you into a work mode! And if not, it would at the very least change the lazy vibe that usually comes with wearing a PJs.

#4 Have A Permanent Workplace

Whether it’s a desk, a specific chair or a place on the sofa, having a permanent workplace is important for getting into work mode. By having a specific desk where you sit and only do your job by, you’re regulating yourself that whenever you’re sitting by that desk, you should be doing your job. Otherwise, if you’re sleeping, watching TV and working in the same place, these things will get mixed together, and it would be easier to distract you.

#5 Making A “To Do” List

A bit well- known one, but again, really helpful. By sitting every morning and writing down everything that you need to get done today, it’ll be actually easier to get stuff done. You wouldn’t forget anything, and everything will be laid out in a very easy and organized way. Plus, once you’ve finished one of the tasks that are on the list, crossing it out will give you the motivation to do more and to cross more things off the list (or at least, that’s how it works for me :)).

#6 Only Work During Work Hours!

While you’re at work or school, you’re only working during very specific hours, and once you’re done- you’re done. When you arrive at home after a long day of working, you probably will NOT be working again. So try to do just that, WHILE you’re at home! Kinda like having a routine- decide on specific hours, in which you will be working. But once the time is up, don’t work anymore. It is easier to have your day all mixed up while you’re at home, because no one is telling you when you should work and when you shouldn’t, but try to be your own boss. Tell yourself when to start, and when to finish. It’ll make getting tasks done easier, and it will give you time for yourself, which is just as important.

#7 Take Breaks!

No one is expecting you to be superman! It’s important to take breaks, for you mental and physical health! Go for a run, eat a snack, watch that one episode of “friends”. It’s okay to take breaks when you feel like you’ve been working for long enough. Otherwise, you’d burn out! Be careful with that though, make sure that you’re not taking too long of a break. Know when your break starts, and when you should be getting back to work. Set a timer if needed ๐Ÿ™‚

#8 Just Do It!

As a perfectionist and a procrastinator, I know how hard starting a project and getting things done can be sometimes. But something that I have to remind myself everyday is- the only way to get something done, is to actually do it. Unless you get up and write, your essay will not be ready for submition. Unless you get up and do your dishes, they will not be clean. Understanding that in order to get things done you actually have to do is quite important if you want to be able to work effectively from home. Another helpful tip if you’re really struggling with that is simply to count to five. Tell yourself “Once I finish counting to five, I will get out of bed”, and then really do so!

#9 Don’t Do Things That You Wouldn’t Be Doing At Work

If you wouldn’t go to sleep at 3 am during a school’s night, don’t do it. If you wouldn’t be getting up in the middle of work in order to fold your laundry, don’t do it. If you wouldn’t be watching Netflix in the middle of class, don’t do it. It’s that simple- just like setting time for work and time for yourself, seperate your home life from work and/or school. Don’t be doing things that you wouldn’t normally be doing during the week- even though you’re working from home, you’re still working. So treat it like a real job.

#10 Have A Weekly Schedule

Make yourself a weekly schedule! This tip is a mix of tip #1 and tip #5- at the begining of each week, set yourself a schedule- when’s your day off? what are you doing this Saturday? when are you going to study for that test? But also try to set a routine- for example, decide on one day off a week, which will always be your day off (if that’s possible).

ANDD WE’RE DONE!

This is all I’ve got for you today. I hope that you will find these tips helpful! Good luck for you if you’re starting a new school year- tell me what are your tips to be more motivated and productive at home. Also, feel free to follow my blog if you’d like to see more posts from me ๐Ÿ™‚

Thank you for choosing to spend your time on my post. It means a lot, and I really hope that you enjoyed it. As always, take care. I will see you next Sunday ๐Ÿ™‚

Toodles! ๐Ÿ’

-Ocean girl.


Losing A Friend

(Trigger Warning- I will be talking about a friend that I lost last year. )

Hello World!

How have you all been doing? I hope that everything is well and that you’re managing to stay somewhat sane during this weird time. Lately I’ve been able to read a lot more, I just finished reading my second book since the beginning of august, which is two books more then I read this entire year. “Me Before You”, by Jojo Moyes, is one of them. I would love to write a review on that book in another post someday maybe, but in this blog I would like to talk about the feelings that I felt after finishing it. This book talks a lot about life and death, and it really got me thinking about something that I’ve been putting off for a long time.

When I was eleven, just going into 6th grade, my parents told me that we will be moving to a different country and that I will be going to a new school. Of course, I was sad, scared and nervous. I never switched schools before and I didn’t know anyone from that country. We moved there during summer break, about a month before school started. My mum signed me up to the girls’ volleyball team that started training in the summer, so I could get to know some of the girls before starting 6th grade. This was probably the best thing that she could’ve done, even though I hated every second of training at the time. I knew no one, I had no intention of getting to know anyone either. I was mad at my parents for taking me away from my friends, for putting me into a school that I didn’t want to go to. Nonetheless, I still went to every single practice. I saw all the girls whispering and looking at me, and I felt awful. One time during practice I locked eyes with one of the girls, let’s call her Bella. At that moment I just knew: we were not going to be friends. She was kinda mean to me in a polite way, if you know what I mean. I didn’t really care at the time, I simply left it as it was. On my first day of school I found out that she was in my class. We were pretty mean to each other- blocking each other’s exit, giving each other death stares from across the room, etc. Looking back, I really don’t know why.

Around a month after that first day all of the girls from my class were playing volleyball during our break time, including Bella and myself. At some point during the game, one of us, I can’t remember which one, passed the ball to the other. We both slowly started only passing the ball to each other, without saying a word. After that break was over, Bella and I started being nice to each other and slowly became friends.

We were never BFFs, but we were on pretty good terms. I was her classmate, and she was mine. I remember one time, when I got to school early and only the both of us were there, she showed me her legs, after shaving them for the first time. She was so excited and happy, feeling quite mature, I assume. When I asked her if a cut that she got from the razor blade hurt, she smiled and said, “You do what you gotta do”. We both laughed at that, and all was well.

Two years later my parents told me that we were moving again. I saw that one coming, because I knew that we would only stay in our new house for a short time but, I was still really sad. On my last field trip with my class, a few months before the end of 7th grade, I decided to go to all of the students who I ever been mean to and apologize (it was only Bella and another boy lmao I wasn’t a bully, don’t come at me). I went up to her and said sorry for my behaviour at the beginning of the previous year. She smiled at me, said that she was also sorry, and we hugged. It seemed to make her quite happy, and maybe she felt like we were much closer afterwards, because she threw me a “goodbye party” at her house. I was very surprised, but I was also young so I didn’t think too much about it. She hanged up many photos of me and my friends, and glued an image of me on a notebook in which the rest of the class wrote their phone numbers and nice messages. After the party I said goodbye to everyone, and we moved. In the next two years I didn’t think of her very often, and if I did then it was only because we sometimes talked on snapchat or I saw her instagram stories or photos. I never really thought about how she was doing- after all, I never felt like we were really close. To me, she was mainly a classmate.

But at the beginning of my freshman year in high school (in a different school of course) she got diagnosed with cancer. I had her in my mind, and I would follow her stories and updates on social media, but I didn’t feel like it was my place to say anything to her. We haven’t talked in two years, and it seemed to me kinda fake and wrong to simply text her saying how much I love her, when we both know that I would’ve never done so if she wasn’t sick. I also didn’t want to offend her for that same reason. She was pretty positive on social media, but our mutual friends told me otherwise. in the beginning of my sophmore year, when she got really sick, I decided to dm her on instagram. We chatted for a bit- I told her that I wasn’t sure whether to text her or not, because we really aren’t that close, but that I do care for her very much and am here if she ever needs me. She texted me back, saying thank you and promising to update me if anything changed. She never did, and I never asked.

Around august 2019, right after I returned from summer camp, my mum took me aside and told me that Bella passed away a few days before. Normally I’m quite an emotional person (I’m a pisces, for god’s sake!) but I was okay. I was in a bit of a shock, but I didn’t cry. I didn’t know what to do, really. It felt very weird, like I was supposed to be sad, but also not, because I haven’t seen her in longer then three years. During my junior year in high school I still thought of her every now and then. Our mutual friends would post her pictures on the instagram, saying how much they miss her. But it wasn’t until I read “Me Before You” that it hit me- she was once very much alive, but no longer is.

It was very diffucult for me (and it still is) to wrap my mind around the idea that she simply isn’t here. Because I live too far away from that area, and because she wasn’t that present in my life, I never felt that change. Until now. It’s terrifying to think that a few years ago I saw her slowly growing up- playing volleyball, shaving her legs for the first time, hunging out with her friends- but her life stopped. She never turned into the woman that I saw her turning into. It’s terrifying. It made me realise that no one is safe- anything could happen at any given moment, and you will never know when’s the last time that you’d experience something, or see someone.

I feel pretty bad for the way that I acted- I should’ve tried harder, check in with Bella on a daily basis… even though I didn’t see her as a very close friend, she clearly saw something in me if she decided to throw me a goodbye party at her house. I know that I never wanted to hurt her, which is why I never insisted to recieve updates from her- I didn’t want her to think that I’m only asking because I feel bad. I’m very glad that at some point I did say something, I did try to recover our friendship- but after I sent that message the ball was in her court- it was her choice whether to keep on texting me or not. Or was it?

I still have no idea what to say or how to cope, because it all just hit me two hours ago. I really felt the need to share all of this with someone- so there you are.

But I guess that that’s it. I’m still thinking about her, especially now, and I was wondering- how to you deal with something like that? It there a specific thing that I could do? I normally don’t get many comments on my blog posts, which is fine- I still had the opportunity to get this off my chest- but know that if you also are dealing with a loss of a loved someone, I am more them happy to hear you out. Feel free to share your story and struggles in the comments- I might not be able to understand, but I can help lift some of the weight off your shoulder.

Thank you so much for choosing to spend your time on reading my blog. It realy means a lot. Take care of yourself!

Toodles! ๐Ÿ”ฎ

-ocean girl

Hello World!๐ŸŒŠ

Hi! I’m “Ocean Girl” and I’m a 16-year-old teenage girl. I live in a pretty fine house with my little brother and both of my parents. I went to the same school and been in the same class with the same classmates for 9 years. I hanged out with the same friends and my life was pretty much the same roller coaster: sometimes you’re so high that you can almost touch the sky, and sometimes you’re so low that you can almost small something rot in hell. But either way, the rail cart is always staying on its track. And even if you’re scared, you can always look to the sides and see the familiar festival and surroundings, along with your family and friends, and some cotton candy to lighten up your day. That’s what my life was like, until last year, year ten. I outgrown my rail cart. Being with the same teachers and classmates just didn’t work for me as well as it did in the past. I got tired of having to go to the same place for over 9 years. I did not like what my school had to offer anymore. So I did what I had to do in order to make me happy: I switched festivals- I transferred schools.

“New school, new me”- fitting in a new school could get extreme. First impressions are suddenly important, because the way you present yourself in the first few days, is *usually* how the rest of your time in school would look like. You can either be the smart kid, the popular one, the jockโ€ฆ though for me, I never felt like I was any of those. Thankfully, I was able to find my place in my class, I even made new friends. Yet I still had to deal with new problems that I never had to deal with at my old school. Some of them are small, such as dealing with mean girls, getting rejected (and I’m not talking about relationship stuff), not reaching up to my teachers’ expectationsโ€ฆ And being unable to be vulnerable. At my old school, we barely had any homework or tests. We also had long breaks in between classes and a ton of free time. So I would usually go to the side with my friends during lunch break, and have a really deep and long heart-to-heart conversations. We would sit in small groups of 2-3 people so that way we can really be our true selves. (here’s a tip for a better life lol: when you’re talking in small and intimate groups, people probably won’t judge you because they are likely to be their true selves as well. Plus, there is no pressure to be “Miss/Mister prefect” as there aren’t many people that are watching you. This isn’t a scientific fact though; I’m just speaking from personal experience).

By talking and having long conversations my friends and I were letting out steam, anxiety and stress. In my new festival, school, whatever- things are different. We have homework and tests on a weekly and sometimes daily basis. We barely have any free time and the breaks that we do have in between classes are short. My friends are hanging out in big groups, and even though I love them a lot, it’s hard to talk about your feeling and being expose when there are about 10 pairs of eyes and ears who are looking at you and listening to you all at the same time.

Because of that, alongside many other reasons, over the past year I’ve became an anxious and stressful person. And well, that’s kind of a big problem. And problems should be taken care of. I have listed others earlier on in this post, but this problem is the one that is most important to me to solve. And so, I decided to take care of it. By creating this blog. (Jeez, I used the word “problem” way too many times in this last sentence).

The people who are reading this blog, you guys, probably don’t know me and never heard my name before reading this (unless you’re someone I know in real life. In that case, please stop reading and log off this website right now. Haha thank you bye), so you don’t have previous opinions about me. That means that the way I represent myself in this blog, is the way that you would see me and picture me in your mind. This means that I can be 100% myself, without anyone doubting me as no one knows better. Here you will get to know the real me, and not the polite new girl in class. And I don’t know you, which means that you can be 100% yourself too.

I’m excited to start this new chapter in my life, and it would be awesome if you guys could tag along. This could be our little corner on the internet, where we could chat about pretty much all of the things that you wouldn’t chat about in small talks (or anything in general, really).

Andโ€ฆ I think that that’s it! Thank you if you made it this far. Let me know what you think in the comments below.

โ™ฅ TOODLES!

-ocean girl

P.S. Since this is the first blog post, and it doesnโ€™t have a proper theme, I decided to add this random picture that I took the other day, of a flower. I had fun editing it, lol. Okay bye! โค๏ธ